Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I’m broken.

For one of the few times in my life, I’m paralyzed by fear. Usually, I look at all of my options, find that one that best meets my needs, and go with it.

I’m not going to lie, I get frustrated when other people don’t operate that way. I get annoyed when I hear the same story over and over again. A lot of times I think (or SAY), “you KNOW what you want, and you KNOW how to get it. So go get it! Quit whining, start doing.”

It’s really obnoxious, I know. But up until now I’ve been able to operate that way with no guilt, because that’s how I do. Key words: up until now.

My body is broken. I can’t stop obsessing about that enough to make a decision about my next move. I’m stuck on this circumstance, blaming it for how my life is unfolding, and feeling guilty and ineffective because I KNOW what I want, and I KNOW how to get it, but I can’t stop whining and start doing.

I’m trying to get out from under the feeling of guilt. I feel guilty that I didn’t do more before, guilty that I haven’t done more since then, guilty that I’m still wallowing in this version of misery. I need to absolve myself of all this before I can move forward.



5 thoughts on “Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.”

  1. At least you're not alone. We're all broken in some way – and we don't get to choose how. It helps a little to remember that other people's seemingly minor broken bits hurt just as much as mine.

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