An Open Letter to my Future Self

Dear Future Self:

Today I signed up for a weight-loss program. It’s been a while coming. Kept stepping on that scale, hoping that just seeing the numbers would scare me away from food. But really, I was thinking I wasn’t that bad. And I was right. I wasn’t eating foods that were “that bad,” just eating way more of all those “not bad” foods than I needed. So the numbers kept rising. Not any huge amounts, but enough to nag at me.

I also kept thinking that “running” (really, a sedate jog) once or twice a week was going to solve all my problems.

Here’s the thing, though: I love food. You probably still do, off in the future. I also love looking in the mirror and thinking, “darn I look good.” And that hasn’t really happened in a while.

So last night I got on the scale and saw a number that I’ve never seen before and freaked out a little. Because I have let my love for food turn into a love of eating. The taco baby is proof of that, even without the scary scale number.

When I’d calmed down, I talked it over with Hubs, then went and did something about it. I would say “did something about it AGAIN,” in a sarcastic tone, but success is continuing to re-start after you stall out, isn’t it?

As you read this, your past self is signing off and going for a walk. It’s going to be a long hard road, but I am really looking forward to meeting you (future self) in person. And looking long and hard and saying, “darn you look good.”

Until then,
Rae

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8 thoughts on “An Open Letter to my Future Self”

  1. Kudos and best wishes. My own personal nadir was seeing the scale hit the number last achieved in my ninth month of pregnancy. When I had a WHOLE NOTHER HUMAN inside of me. Ouch. God bless ADHD meds. 50 lbs and holding.

  2. You inspire me to get back on the “eat-right” horse again. I read an article yesterday about the addictive qualities of sugars and that it takes as long to get rid of the craving as it does for a coke addict to get rid of his. I believe it!

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